A Moment Alone

WARNING: sappy post ahead. Today I just felt like sitting down and writing something from the heart, a chat with myself if you will. I wanted to take a breather amongst all my belongings (I've moved today/unpacking is hard work) and I wanted a moment of peace.

This weekend marks the first time in 3 months that me and my SO are going to be apart from each other, and it's just hit me that I'll be sleeping alone tonight. Now, last summer was the complete opposite - we were apart for weeks at a time and it was the hardest thing I'd ever experienced. Long distance combined with a few other factors left me almost depressed, or just generally in an AWFUL mental state, this time last year so I wanted to sit down and have a moment to really appreciate what I've got now.

I was in a job I LOATHED, I felt isolated and lonely and family life wasn't the best - this time round, I get to share the summer with my love, while working in a part time (sometimes full time) job that I enjoy with a bunch of good people. The major downside is that now I barely get to see some of my best friends from high school, as I'm away from my hometown for 3 months and counting...

Although this weekend will be hard, maybe it's for the best. It'll be an opportunity for some major me-time and being apart is good to make you realise the awesomeness of what you have. Like last summer, whenever we did see each other, even if it was brief, it was amazing - it was like falling in love all over again. Distance really does make the heart grow fonder.

That phrase is also true for friendships I think. This year I have barely been able to see some of my closest friends, only meeting for coffee that always too short for my liking, but I know in my heart that I love them just the same as when we were together in school 5 days a week. And although I still won't see them for another month or so, I can just look forward to the masses of stories we will have  to talk about when we do meet up and I love seeing how my gals have grown and changed in the times we've been apart - they're becoming even more amazing women. And hey, now that my financial situation is on the rise, maybe the phrase "I'll totally come visit!" will finally have some more truth behind it haha.

I think that's enough yapping for today, so I'll put an end to this stream of consciousness,
Until next time,

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